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Everyday sucks. When you wake up, you just feel that why am i still alive? Why i didn't die? Can i continue my sleep? Then, you go to school. You have a shit day at school. Your friends said you sucks, vain, stupid and you feel that no one noticed you at school. You are trying to be happy and smile to everyone but your heart is screaming and crying. You came home tired, upset and stressed. You see your mom with hope that your mom will be more comprehend and make you feel better. Suddenly your mom said "You are so boring. Why do i have son like you?". With the watery eye, you walk up slowly to your room, close the door, lie on the bed and just cry for ages. You feel that you're alone and afraid of telling anyone about your problems. The things that only you can think is cut, self-harm, and kill yourself. 

Did you ever feel that situation? Did you have been think about suicide? Did you ever wanted to cut you wrist or thighs? Did you think about suicide once? Did you?! Tbh, I did. Well always. I am the one who crying on my bed every night, crying in the shower, do the fake smile, trying to cut my wrist, feel that i'm so fat, starving every night, hate my body, my face is ugly, insecure to other girls and etc. But.. i still didn't have scars. Weird huh? Sort of. So, i do understand your despair and depressed. I have a huge example of suicide attempted. It was Demi Lovato. She's pretty right? She's voice is so mellifluous. But she's the one of those who commit suicide. She cuts, had anorexia, depressed and nobody knew that. One day, she was performing concerts with an empty stomach. She was losing her voice from purging. She was self-medicating and not taking medication for depression. She literally was so emotionally whacked out. By that, she took it out on someone that meant a lot to her. Then, she went to rehab. Now everything is fine with her, but she still feel very insecure.

If you were commit suicide, please think about your family and people that love you. No, they don’t hate you. 

Imagine someone walking into your room and finding your lifeless body on the floor. They’ll shake you, figure out what’s going on, only to realize your heart has stopped beating forever. Your mom crying and screaming: "What did i do wrong? Is this my fault?"  Your siblings stays outside your room every night crying and wishing for you to come back. They can't accept your departing. And your friends, people at your school, imagine the news spreading that you had ended your life. They’re not going to care are they? Wrong. Your suicide is going to touch them the most.  Maybe you’re thinking about this because of bullying? Cursing? It’s going to hit home for the kids who gave you shit at school most of all. They’ll know that they were a part of the end of your life. Don’t let them get to you because you know what? You matter. And for your funeral? Who’s going to organize it? Who’s going to have the heart to go through the stuff and the life you left behind? Your clothes, your locker, your notes, your room?

If you kill yourself today, you’ll never know what’s going to happen tomorrow. You had caused your family and friends to become depressed, crying all day everyday. After the tears stop, depression hits full force. They don’t want to lose you, beautiful. It doesn’t matter what race you are, what religion you believe in- if you don’t believe in one at all, what your sexuality is, how tall you are, how much you weigh, etc. You are the way you are because you’re an individual. You are an incredible, beautiful, amazing individual that doesn’t deserve what they’re being put through. However, you are. It’s not your fault. Don’t let anyone convince you that it is. Please don’t ever feel like you’re alone or undeserving. There’s always tomorrow and if today really is that bad? It can only go up from here. If not tomorrow, the next day. If not the next day, the next week. Never, never, never give up. If it’s not okay, it’s not the end. God will be with you 100% of the way. Please remember my dear, God always beside you.